Fabric Food!

So some of you may know and other's may not but either way I need to write or talk about it because well, I don't know how I feel about it. My body for some time has not really been my friend. I know I have done things in the past to anger it well now it is lashing out it ways well I never dreamed of. So after tests and tests and more tests and well a couple of surgeries here and there the last 3 years......My Dr. for now has put me on a High Fiber Diet..................AKA Fabric Foods.

First of all things I hate the word Diet. Yes I know I am over weight and yes I know I eat wrong a lot of the time but there is not one thing I like with the word DIET in it. I hate diet drinks and diet food. I feel like there is a FORCE that is coming at me telling me if you don't it means more tests and more surgeries which is true.

SO I have to suck it up and think of it differently. Problem is more and more each day I learn how Nutrition dumb I am. I am seriously so stupid about food. I never realized that some of the things I eat if I just steamed them instead of ate them raw are better for me. Or that some of the foods I thought were not that great are some of the best. Who knew. Crown me Nutrition Dummy because then at least it comes with diamonds!

Ok so I understand that Dr. or Lab tech's need time to run these so called TEST'S but do they know what it does to a person to wait 5 to 7 days. I hate waiting for tests it is the worst part. The waiting and wondering then.......The call comes.....you notice the number you take a deep breath and and blow it out then you answer....The Dr. says...........WHAT????? (ok so usually the answer I get is the tests were normal or I get the they were inconclusive so we need to check on that if if causes and more problems) I am the MYSTERY the Mystery Woman with the weird body that they can Never give it a name.......I PRAY IT HAS A NAME THIS TIME!!!! Please Please PLEASE have a name. I just want to move on move forward and have ENERGY and be able to exercise again so then yes world. I can lose weight.........So now I wait!.....wait for the call and pray it has a name, any name and even more a solution so that I can move forward and not feel like I am Sitting at a table stuck eating Fabric Food!